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Friday, January 9, 2009

Moved

I'm so lazy to blog now that i've started to Lj.
I am going to fail every single test from monday to thursday.

By the way, I use livejournal now. I'll give you the address if you ask for it, or if i think you're nice enough. [:

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Friday, January 2, 2009

Square One

I may be stupid, but i'm not dumb.

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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

It's finally here!

Happy 2009 to all!

New year's eve was spent in the most unexpected way and with the most unexpected company. Thanks to Chris Toh, i actually enjoyed how my New year's eve turned out to be [:

My lucky number '09 has finally appear on all the calenders across the globe! I should do '08 some justice thou so i'm just gonna sum up last year for abit. It definitely wasn't the best year i had as i already mentioned in my previous post, but it was definitely the year in which i learnt the most about myself through the eyes of others around me. Thanks to a bunch of people from the TSD class of '08, i got a reality check and was slapped back into reality. 'Thou it was a really depressing period of time when everything seemed to be going the wrong way, it was easy to see what was so very wrong in the beginning. I definitely grew up there and then. [: Good luck to everyone for TSD A's next year! Let's kick everyone else's butt! (or die trying to haha)

'08 was also the year that The Eight met up the most as a group (i think), it's the year that one more member of the group left us (Vicki dear!) and it's the year that new additions came in the form of boys. Haha! It's nice to have a close bunch of friends who've been with me all the way since primary school. Well, i guess we really are the coolest gang since primary school!
I think i made the most number of new friends in '08 as well, and became close to the people i least expect to. Like how i discovered the very fierce looking junguang is in fact a very nice gentle giant and confidant and like how the seemingly anti-social daniel wee is such a joker. Although there were some who came and went like how the river flows, everyone was pretty much important to me in different ways, at different periods of the year.

I had many firsts in '08 as well, some of which i shouldn't be proud of but hey it was an experience okay? Hahaha, First time i skipped school (PAE) with a bunch of friends and went to play pool in the middle of a schoolday. ( Jude, Clarissa, Yuki, Fym, Bryan and i can't remember who else was there! ) The first time i skipped a lesson, Wendy Lee's, and got totally busted for it! First time i ran for an independent candidate election (council), first time i started playing shooter for netball. First time i sang in a band thou it was for just one performance the guys were all so nice, first time i got to go out more than i usually can. First time i felt the overwhelming emotion of loss but thank goodness it's not too late to look back again [: First time i get a hefty fine for returning library books late..thanks to... nevemind... Haha. First time i ran a marathon, and it's definitely not gonna be my last one! There're so many first times i can't even remember all of then anymore. But you get my point.

Well, hopefully there's gonna be a 180 degree difference in '09, and i'm gonna work towards that. I will follow my list of resolutions closely. Lucky number '09, here i come! [:

Oh yes, i can finally start learning driving soon!

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Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Fairytale

To smile like this again;

Just got home from the cheesecake outing which comprised of(most unfortunately) Kevin, Gloria, Ben and I. Rena as well but she was just around for a short while: Dinner. Don't know exactly what got into me, but i've just got this random urge to blog.

2008's gonna be over in approximately 25 hours and while people are probably busy thinking up new year resolutions that they might never fulfil, i'm just stuck in a blank state of mind. This definitely hasn't been the best year of my life, but looking back at it again i know i wouldn't change anything if i could live it all over again. everything happens for a reason and no matter how lousy some things might have turned out to be, i guess there's always something to learn from it. But i'm tired. I don't want to live next year going having to go through lousy business again just to gain a tad of enlightenment anymore. Like how i already know i will fail my A levels in an absolutely unglamorous fashion if i don't study hard next year, I probably already know of the lessons i've learnt from all the incidences that've happened earlier this year. Well, just maybe.

For so long i've been looking out for a perfect person, And perfect in my definition being: of above average intelligence, relatively good looking, respectable Character/EQ, fairly well-to-do and yeah i think that's about it so far. I haven't found anyone. Of course people would say how everyone's special in their own way and yes i agree with that very, nice way of expressing how everyone is imperfect. Well, i don't know. I've been searching for perfection for so long and somehow not being able to find it has left me unexpectedly disappointed in the human race. It was, a rather ridiculoussearch and fortunately, i've finally leart how to realize how imperfections make people... well.. THEM.

I have to stop going about in circles, and talking random rubbish. In a nutshell i just wanna thank everyone. Thank you to all the people who were part of my life this year, and i love every single one of you out there. There's so much to rant about like how there was an annoying, and rather impolite man on the MRT today but no. I'm done with being sour and picking on people's imperfections.

Hello 2009.

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Friday, December 26, 2008

Double Post

Merry Christmas to all the lovely people in the world [:

So i finally overcame my laziness and got myself to blog about the various things that've been going on during this season. I guess i've got so much i wanna say that the thought of it just makes me wanna sleep it off. But, here goes:

Spent the eve of Christmas eve with the girls and boyfriends (and my bestie russell chan) at theresa's place. It started off with abit of a laugh 'cause my dear champion was waiting at me for at the bus stop of chris tan's house, instead of toh's. And he ended up alighting 2 stops earlier after boarding bus 5 'cause he thought he missed the stop. All that drama, apparently we share this terrible communication breakdown syndrome everytime he makes an attempt to come to my area. I thought i was gonna be late 'cause tara said 6pm at tree's but it's taralyn so of course, that meant about 8pm. So Russ, Theresa and I patiently waited for the rest to come over until we couldn't take it anymore 'cause our stomachs were making the weirdest noise by 8pm. The gang finally arrived, with the turkey and all (yay!) and we settled for dinner at about 21 30. Dinner was gooood i loved the beef (thank you so much pohmeng!) I not-so-secretly (because i said it to angeline and poh meng in their faces) think that angeling and poh meng should get married. And honestly, they might very well be the first couple in our group to wed. Hur hur hur but we can never predict the future so let's just leave that for now. We exchanged our little gifts for each other and shared/stole chocolate with/from the boys. We bought them Royce okay, it amazes me that we're so very generous with their presents and not with our own. Hahaha but all was good plus, Chris Toh bought us all donuts when he got back! What a sweetheart he was! (that night luh and it's cause of the donuts HAHA) We proceeded to take about 200 pictures in the same position and pose trying to do a sad face totally killed us 'cause we couldn't stop laughing and the night ended off (for me at least 'caus tara ange and poh meng stayed over at tree's, claire and YT cabbed off) with everyone walking me home. I swear, we were like a bunch of noisy asses terrorising the streets at midnight, i hope we weren't that much of a nuiscence but it's no hamr to have wacky fun once in a while is it (:

Christmas eve was spent catching Bedtime Stories with Jave, then rushing off to Russell's house for the barbecque. We spent the night talking and laughing and drinking and fighting and.... breaking a glass... and very randomly meeting my primary school friends Tiara and Stacey who are now very hot women of my age (dammit! hahaha).

I loved how my christmas was spent with the most important and closest people in my life, it just made me feel so lucky, and most importantly, truely happy. I am however, disappointed that i didn't celebrate christmas with my fmily, simply because we don't celebrate it (not this year anyway). It felt so odd, like there was this huge missing piece through the whole christmas period. It's wasn't something i wanted, it felt awful. But i couldn't just suddenly suggest celebrating christmas and gather everyone around the table to be happy and have a slice of logcake, not when everyone at home's barely on decent speaking terms. It'll be awfully awkward to even crack a smile in my mother's face. I wish i could, and i wish i had. But i didn't. I don't know how to, salvage this already sour relationship i share with my mother without sending her to death in shock. I felt so horrible inside, especially when i looked at my father's back view. He looks so, old. So unhappy, and so different than before. I want to tell them i'm sorry, for all the times i've made them furious and unhappy. I want to scream at them, to stop sulking and being suck a wet blanket everytime. I want us to be a family again, a happy one. I hope it's not too late, to celebrate next Christmas with them.

I love you, Mom and Dad.

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Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Harsh Reality.

Netball training was PATHETIC.
4 people turned up for training, how desperately pathetic is that. Seriously, we shouldn't even take part in next year's A Division Netball Tournament because we don't even have a proper team. As quoted from someone "They wouldn't even last in a freaking C Division match, C DIV! Do they even know what a netball tournament is like?!" I really don't know. And yes, that is how bad we are. I'm not being mean, it's just the facts.
Honestly, why can't everyone just suck it up, be more disciplined and come for training. Even if there isn't a coach, we can still do so much more, as long as there're enough people. Or at least have the decency to reply text messages, online messages whatsoever and let the captain know if you'd be present for training. 'Cause you know what? There really isn't much we can do with 4 people, so thanks so much for wasting our time. Please, the team sucks. I suck too, so can we all come together and do something about it instead of running away from it.

Gloria, Claudia, Amanda = Big Bullys. :p I'll get back at you all, someday, hopefully, for running away when i was on the kiddy ride!

Rant 1 aside, is it just me or should China Chinese really stop reproducing like rats? Maybe they're not reproducing like rats, but there's enough of them to take over Singapore already at this point in time. I'm not being racist or whatever, but EVERYWHERE i go, i see'em. In hawker centres, in cinemas, in shopping malls, in supermarkets, on the bus, at high end restaurants. Seriously. I'm starting to wonder if i'm still in Singapore, or am i already in China. I won't complain if they can perform their tasks well, in fluent english and with good attitude, but no. (With a few exceptions). From observation, most of them do their jobs halfheartedly, do not pay attention to their customers, DAYDREAM (seriously, i almost had to shout to get that woman back down to earth), cannot converse with their customers and end up getting everyone frustrated. So how did they even land themselves the job?! What on earth are the employers out there thinking?! Is it because they have a lower wage pay? What happened to quality service? Seriously, they better start doing something or they're gonna witness a major fall in the number of customers they get.

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